Lately I have been feeling sorry for myself. I shared about that
here in the fact that I just needed to come to terms with Colton's
hip displaysia. While I have long since gotten used to the harness I think I was still wondering why this had to happen to my child? Why is my uterus small to the point where both of my children have had a physical ailment due to it. Lauren's is less obvious, we got her the help she needed for her head and neck and worked for months with a chiropractor to help the
plagiocephaly and the torticollis and I didn't even miss a beat but for some reason Colton's
hip displaysia has stopped me in my tracks. But it is funny how God puts people into your path to remind you of the big picture. For weeks I have been getting "signs" but I didn't recognize them. {these are just a few incidences. As I have been thinking about it there have been MANY more...what can I say? Sometimes I am a slow learner.}
I didn"t get it when my cousin who was breech as well said he was having a horrible time with both his hips.
I didn't get it when a lady I used to work with told me that she too was born breech and had recently broke one of her hips at a fairly young age.
I think I started to get it when I heard a story about a little girl who's hip displaysia wasn't caught early enough and she had to wear a cast.
I started to get it a bit more when a lady in Wal-Mart stopped me to inquire about Colton's harness and tell me her grand daughter's story of also wearing the crazy contraption over 11 years ago.
I almost got it when a pediatrican told me that his daughter had to wear the harness. Her situation was very similar to Colton's in that it could have been missed in the initial examination but because of their knowledge to test breech babies for this condition, hers too was caught early on.
And yesterday I finally got it. I saw a man who had one leg shorter than the other. I saw him many times and each time he walked past me I kept thinking "this is why we are doing the harness" We have been blessed to find out about this and start getting him treatment at just 7 weeks old. So what if it will take 3 1/2 months. That is nothing compared to a lifetime.
Two of my favorite Bible verses have been popping up all around me too. More ways God has been trying to get my attention.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
Today is Colton's baby dedication at church. Not only are we dedicating Colton's life but Brian and I are promising to show him God's love and compassion and to live our lives to glorify Him so that Colton can grow into a Godly man. I am giving it all to God. I have lost sight of His big picture and His plan for our lives, whatever that may be. I just need to place my trust in Him for He is in control.
So instead of feeling sorry for myself, I am going to embrace this season and let God do his work!!