Plus I have had a lot of things on my mind lately. Trying to sort out all the stuff that happened with Lauren's day care and my emotions that go along with that. I am going to let you all in on a little secret......I hate taking Lauren to daycare every day. Some days I even cry. I know she likes it there and the social interaction is good for her. BUT I would love to be a stay at home mommy and when all the stuff was said I may have taken it a little personally and I may have blamed myself for all of it. OK I will admit it I did…..I know that it is unreasonable as Lauren has a mind of her own but I just feel that if I were at home with her more then she wouldn't act like this.
I really really really badly want to lose some weight but I have no motivation whatsoever to do so. I choose to eat bad foods and drink soda {although I have cut back on that} I hate exercise and have no willpower to make myself do it. I am unhappy with my weight, with the way that I look and Brian and I would like to have another baby and I am so afraid that my weight will hurt our chances. I am heavier now than I ever have been, with the exception of when I was pregnant with Lauren. I am over 30 pounds heavier than when I got pregnant with her. What is it going to take to motivate me? I thought my brother’s wedding would help but I procrastinated and actually gained weight. I was then in a mad dash the last couple of weeks to drop a few pounds, and I did, but I am pretty sure I gained those back. What works for you? What motivates you?
Oh yeah, I almost forgot.
Brian's car was on the fritz last week. Cost us close to $200 to fix it. Thank goodness that was all. Yesterday as I was driving to work a rock flew up and hit my windshield causing it to crack a bit.
{who can tell me what song I started at the very beginning of this post?}
8 comments:
I know all too well the struggle with weight. I've lots a ton lately, but I still have some more to go! My advice is to just not buy anything bad for you. If you don't have it, you can't eat it. We went for like two months without any sugar because I refused to buy any. If I'd had sugar, I would have made cookies and tea and stuff, but without it, we drank only water. I don't ever buy sweets, and that's not because we don't like them. We, well, I TOTALLY LIVE SWEETS!!! I sometimes get one little thing the day I go to town to satisfy my sweet tooth for a little longer, but not a box of cookies or anything.
Hope you're able to meet all your goals!
It is awesome about all you photo shoots! I can't wait to see more pictures.
Don't take the Lauren thing personal, I know it's hard but it's not your fault. You are such a great mommy and she is just a little kid! Things will work out!! :)
I hear you on the losing weight thing. The thing that seems to work for me is changing everything! I seem to eat better when I work out and I work out more when I eat healthy and you have to stay happy and positive too! :) It is SO not easy but I really think there is something behind the "you truly have to want to change" thing. I wish we lived closer I would LOVE a workout buddy, it helps a lot having someone doing it with you! :) Good luck darling, and don't stress out too much about it!
Ice Ice Baby!! :)
Finding motivation to lose weight is so difficult. You should ask some of your friends if they're in the same boat and work toward your goals together.
I started the Couch to 5K with family and friends because it's so much easier to stay motivated when you have people to hold you accountable and show support. There are also lots of message boards for the Couch to 5K where people offer each other support.
You can do it! We will work on it together sista! I need motivation and you need motivation so lets get together aye aye aye.. We will have to revisit Saturday Zumba!
Sonya, Praying you have a much better day tomorrow. I hope the day care will work out. I missed my kids when they were away from me too. Hope you lose all the weight you want. Maybe post your exercises on here etc. I would love to encourage you. Prayers for you conceiving quickly when you decide. Audrey
A little Vanilla Ice Baby. I got to meet him once. I won a contest at the radio station to have lunch with him. The only thing he said was "Word to your mother". I am not kidding!!
I love to watch the Biggest Loser for my motivation. Those people amaze me. I understand all about no motivation though. Just try a little at a time.
As far as your kiddo goes, she is a kid. Don't beat yourself up!!
((HUGS))
awwww hang in there sonya!! the pictures you are taking are beautiful. you have a lovely baby. and being a little heavy never hurt a pregnancy.
i will encourage you. . .
how about throwing lauren in the stroller and just walking thirty minutes a day?? that's a start, huh?
and i've got something on the way for you. . . stay tuned!
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