The whole ordeal with Lauren's daycare yesterday really sent me into a tizzy. All day I stewed and thought about it and talked to several differnt people who work with children. The nurse at her pediatrician's office who was so nice to listen to me through my blubbering and tears. My wonderful sister in law who has a degree in social work, my other wonderful sister in law who is in training to be an elementary teacher and Sonya, a wonderul blogging friend who is also a teacher and has dealt with kids Lauren's age.
Am I too easy on her when she acts out at home?
Do I not put her in time out when I really should?
Is she getting these behaviors from rough housing with us?
Am I the horrible mother that I suddenly feel like?
Should I change the way that we discipline her?
My answer to all of these questions is NO. There is nothing wrong with my child and I will be talking to the director of the day care on Monday. Lauren isn't even two yet. This is normal expression. She is develpmentally on track. She does not know how to voice her frustrations and even though they say she is biting for no apparent reason does not mean in that cute little head of her that there is really no reason. I believe there is. We do not know what her thought process is and there is no way that we can start to speculate or God forbid label her in any way shape or form. Maybe she is bored and not being stimulated enough and needs to move to the next class before she turns too. That is one option that I am going to explore if her daycare is on board. But let me tell you something, if this is not adressed that we will be looking for other childcare options. I love this daycare and I really do like her teachers so this is very hard on me. They are the ones that I entrusted with my newborn baby when I went back to work when she was only 10 weeks old. They have cared for her, her entire life and I almost feel betrayed in some way. I feel bad enough leaving her there and going to work everyday. Mommy Guilt is something that I struggle with every single day and this just MAGNIFIES it to no end. I know they are just trying to help and I know that they love Lauren but I can't get this sinking feeling out of my gut.
Thank you all for your comments and your help and prayers. Please continue to pray for me so that when I go to talk to the director on Monday that I what I say is clear and we can get on the same page.
AND just when I think my life is awful I am reminded just how good I have it. Please pray for one of my niece's friends who is 6 and just had heart surgery. She is not doing very well and is in ICU on life support and is now first on the heart transplant list. Here I am complaining about my daughter's day care and they are fighting for their daughter's life. Please lift this family up in prayer.